Mental Health
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Final Bit of Healing
I recently started a regular meditation practice. When I say recent, i mean within the last week. I haven’t talked a lot about my eating disorder because I’ve felt a lot of shame. By avoiding thinking about the roots of my disordered eating, I avoided healing from it too. As an adult, I now realize…
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Importance of Self-Care
I would like to take this opportunity to persuade those who think self-care is selfish to a new way of thinking. My opinion is that self-care is one of the most selfless things a person can do. I have found that I am a better person when I take care of myself. I have found…
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Most Wonderful Time of the Year?
It’s almost the most stressful time of the year (some people refer to it as wonderful). My relationship with the holidays has gotten much less hate and more love the older I’ve gotten. There are still a few traditions around the holidays that I don’t understand. If any of you neurotypical readers can explain them…
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Too Autistic???
I recently went on a date with someone who is also on the spectrum. The next day I was at work and I was sharing how the date went with my coworkers. One of my coworkers said, “Aww, you guys must get each other”. I thought that was a bit odd since there are people…
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Understanding Boundaries: A Path to Personal Growth
I’ve been thinking about what I was taught as a child lately. My parents raised my siblings and me to be good people. We were taught right from wrong. We learned how to take care of ourselves in a basic sense. What I realized is that I never learned how to set boundaries with other…
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Choose to be Well
I have spent many hours analyzing how I could’ve handled situations better. This use comes from a place of self-loathing. I thought if I did enough analysis of myself, the parts that I don’t like would go away. Since I work in a job that is essentially customer service, I have seen the rainbow of…
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Life belongs to the brave
Last night’s sleep was filled with nightmares. I don’t normally have them. When I woke up this morning, I was so glad that I was in my bed and had to go to work. I have this dream that repeats whenever I’m obsessing over something. The dream is that I’ve gone through the crucible of…
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Changing Plans
I’ve been having an ongoing debate with myself for over a year now. I always thought I’d have kids. I can remember riding the bus home from school, daydreaming about the adventures my two kids and I would take. When I was younger, I only ever thought about the fun parts of parenthood and I…
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Confessions from the Psych Ward
It’s been three years since I spent a little over two weeks in two different behavioral health hospitals. I’m so grateful that I’m farther along on the journey to being healed and whole than I was back then. I’ve been thinking about the advice I’d give to myself and my family members with everything I…
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Change is Constant
Change has always been hard for me. I remember when my mom had the kitchen redone when I was in middle school and we had to use a neighbor’s kitchen to make meals. One night, after we went out to eat because our kitchen was a demolition zone, I just cried. I wanted to go…
Living on the Spectrum 