Heartbreak

We were children when I fell in love with you

You were the prettiest thing in the zoo that was middle school 

Never had I wanted something more than you

I fell for you the very first time

Those blue eyes had to be mine

I clung to you because I had no one else

You made me the safest I’d ever felt

I’d never wanted anyone more, this was the first time I wanted someone to be mine

I followed you around everywhere we would go

I liked you but I didn’t want it to show

I just wanted to be around you

I must’ve smiled like an idiotic fool

I’m not sure what it was that captured me

You were always there when I thought no one else would be

When I felt alone, you always answered the phone

You never judged me when the tears would flow

I loved you for years and didn’t say

I wanted you to show me the way

To show me that you loved me too

I thought that meant I would never lose you

We grew older but never apart

I waited for fate to give us our parts

I was convinced I was going to marry you

Instead, senior year struck a fatal blow

I wanted you to finally show 

How special I was to you

I had daydreams about prom 

We would finally be together on the dance floor

I would feel things I never had before

Instead, I left you to think alone

I thought you’d realize what you’d done

I wanted you to come running and tell me how much you loved me

Instead, someone else caught my eye 

You never told me how you felt

So I went to prom with somebody else

I spent the whole night thinking ‘bout you

Wanting you to be the one swinging me around the room

Never had I been filled with more regret than that night when I realized I still loved you

I wish I would’ve dragged you to that stupid prom

We could have danced together all night long

It might not have been our happy ending but at least I would’ve been in your arms

I know you felt the same way about me

The way your eyes sparkled when I was around

I made you feel safe and seen

We were too young to understand what we had found

You moved away some time ago

We spoke once, over the phone

I wanted to say that I’d messed up but from your voice, you were already gone

I hoped that you’d call me in the future

We’d be friends and I wouldn’t lose you

But fate had given us different parts

And that was to be torn apart

Nowadays you live a state away

I’ve emailed and texted to just say hey

You don’t  respond so I’ve backed away 

Forgotten about you until today

I had a dream where I was singing about you

A teen broken heart ballet, what else is new?

I woke up and wrote this poem about you

Just so you know I’ve found my forever love

We’re getting married next year and he’s the best

I forget about you until I have dreams like this

Where I wonder about the very first time

I fell in love with a wonderful boy

And realize I never thanked you

I’m so grateful you were my first

Showed me the best before I picked the worst

I hope you find your own love and it feels like the very first time

Please don’t forget me, I couldn’t forget you even if I tried